Samadhi realization.

Google search is such a good friend! Every time I need an answer to something, it's right there to offer guidance, and expects nothing in return. Amazingly, it is google above every human I've known to which I have complete faith. You can't trust in humanity, and we are not on Soror, (a distanced planet), so we gotta make due.

Seeking relief from a disturbing emotional state.... a state I considered one of “suffering” I asked the universe to provide some answer to why I was feeling this way, and what was happening to me. I asked the Tarot, astrology, and God without response. The answer finally came in the form of a whisper speak from my angels. (I could say that a tremendous energy enveloped my body, and a true peace was absorbed into my essense, but I'm thinking the angels are an easier explanation.) While the answer completely ended my “suffering” so to speak at the time, it also provided an experience, a realization of an aspect of the nature of understanding itself. That is understanding ends suffering. The more comprehensive the understanding, the greater its impact on a persons life.

In pondering this, I recalled a quote that I had read and remembered from so many years ago that is directly related to this. Finding it through my trusty Google search, I discovered it was attributed to the philosopher Spinoza. Interestingly, although I had read it many times, I had not realized before what it had truly meant. Here it is:

“Emotion, which is suffering, ceases to be suffering as soon as we form a clear and precise picture of it.”

The statement “…a clear and precise picture of it” is a way of describing a mode of understanding or knowing, or for all intensive purposes, of knowledge itself.


Now, I have been accused of over analysing things, and taking too much time to find answers to things that to others means absolutely nothing, but this was one of those philosophical moments that realy got me thinking. I suffer, because I do not understand the reason, the why and wherefore of my condition, my suffering. The why I am feeling and experiencing what can only be assumed to be the "human condition".

Culturally, it appears that instead of seeking to discover, to understand the nature of our suffering, our unhappiness and the feelings and behavior we are responsible for, we tend to quickly label the emotional suffering as something bad, wrong, problematic and so forth as disease, as something to be cured, treated, medicalized. In effect, to be gotten rid of as quickly as possible.

Understanding is obviously power. Knowledge is power. I've spent the last few days trying to figure it all out, and descided that I am going back to get a degree in Phsychology. It's always been in the back of my mind, right from the time I was in limbo from high school that it was the ideal position for me then, and i never did listen to the school quack when I was advised that I was ideal for phsychology.

Sure wish I'd had this moment of understanding 15 years ago, before I tried to fill the empty spaces in my consciousness with meaningless love affairs, go nowhere jobs, pharmaceuticals and relationships with people who's only thoughts were of themselves, and how I coukd help better thier lives.

While difficult to put into words what I am trying to convey, a Sufi sage puts it this way...
“In the transcendental dimension of consciousness, one is seeing the cause behind the cause and the purpose behind the purpose. It is reaching beyond the world of causes until you reach a place where there is just the meaningfulness behind the whole universe, without any consciousness of the universe. It’s like that state which is mentioned in the sequel of Life after Life, where the people returning from a clinical death get to such a state of omniscience that there are no facts to understand: there’s just an understanding of understanding. This very high degree of realization is what is called samadhi.”
(Pir Vilayat Inayat Khan, Retreat Manual of the Sufi Order, P I-31)

Once again, Google didn't let me down.